Blog of Emelie Ivansson

My dad just sent me this photo of our “second” houses he’s re-renovating. Looks soo pretty, I just want to be there enjoying lazy sunny days in the garden drinking too much wine.

Tilly is so happy in her new home, enjoying the garden and constantly exploring the new life. Im exploring it too, and I’m also happy.

Warm summer nights in the garden, weekend shopping, and way to much bbq’in.

And I love it!

Cant wait to get home, to family, swedish food, fresh countryside air, and hopefully sunshine. Really just need to get home and recharge.. June will be crazy busy, scary and exiting, and I will need some proper energy for sure.. 3 more days..

I miss sitting alone on a cold airport floor with hundreds of different feelings racing between my heart and my brain. I miss the combination of loss and excitement, leaving one place for another. I miss it with hate, and I miss how it made me wish my life was more settle, but knowing the settledness makes me want those painful hundred feelings and a cold floor made out of stone back in a heartbeat.

I miss finding a last, sloppy written, godbye message in my moleskin, and I miss the tear that messed up the ink. I miss a random stranger asking me if I’m okay, handing over a napkin, I miss it with love, and I miss pretending the goodbyes were just temporary, like the day after was going to be like the day before, but knowing those goodbye wasn’t, makes me want to go back and hold on to them for just a little bit longer.

A rainy and cold bank holiday couldn’t been spent in a better way, perfect laziness.

Randomly got a fever, freezing my ass off last night after coming home from dinner. Finally fell as sleep under a massive pile of duvet and blankets but woke up with tears streaming out of my eyes from an “attack”(lol) of massive back pain, such a scary feeling, my body felt completely twisted in some weird way and I had no strength at all. What I did have tho, was perfect company, taking the best care of me, and on top of that I got a Love letter and a cheering up song.. So although pain, life isn’t that bad, is it?

Pallers - The kiss

Enjoying the combination of work, sunshine and good company.