Last year I decide to write a summery after each year, here goes my 2008.
Spend New Years Eve with my sister. Wasn’t feeling that well but it turned out to be a good start.
After a hard and emotional break it was time to get back to school, which was a challenge, to much feelings right in front of me. The year kinda started with an end, but seeing each other everyday is not the best suloution when you’re trying to make disistions based on your brain instead of your heart(?). Before I even knew what happened I found yourself in your arms again realizing that’s where I wanna be even if I’m not suppose to.
Life went on, the good life. In February the whole class went to London to have a Release party of our class site creativesunlimited.com, meet great people in the industry and had a perfect time. In March my family and I left for Spain a week to celebrate my Mum’s birthday, a bit frustrating break from school though.
The whole spring was all about finding a placement for our upcoming Internship, and after a lot of emails, internal fights with the classmates and emotional struggling I got my Internship at the place I most wanted to work at; at Attik in San Francisco.
The rest of the spring went by to fast and sudently it was time to leave Karlskrona, leave the friendships and the love. I was a mess, struggling with lot of old shit and most of all struggling with the unknown. I followed my pain and went to Gävle and F for a few days. That was exactly what I needed, and afterwards I was all fine, I was alsmost happy, almost smiling on the inside. The rest of the summer turned out quite well, spend time with my old friends again which was great!
In August it was time to leave for San Francisco. I loved the city from day one and I was all fine, maybe a bit to fine. Hate the word fine. But after just a few days being in The States I got a call that my Sister been in a car accident. I didn’t really know how bad it was, but it was bad. My baby sister means the world to me, and when she needs me I should be there. Things wasn’t as they used to be. Things had changed. Today I know that if I would have been there I would have died, just seeing her like that. I know its a terrible thing to think, and I know that I never will be able to understand what she was going through, and it sucks that I can’t do anything about it either. Instead I pretended like it never happened since I wasn’t able to see it with my own eyes. Pretended like everything was fine.
At my internship at Attik I meet a lot of nice and interesting people, got to be involved in interesting project and really felt like I developed as a designer. Spent the weekends enjoying the sunshine, partying and shopping. Meet one person more special then the others, Monica, we were so alike and could really understand each other, Don’t know how I would have survived this fall without her.
In October my mum, dad and Sis came to visit me, I was looking forward to it so much, to show them my life here and everything. But it wasn’t that easy. My sister was still in pain and the connection we always had was gone. it was a hard week for all of us. Wish so bad I could turn back time and do it all over again, differently, better. Just before she left we got to talk about everything and after that it felt a bit better, I think.
In November I booked my ticket to Montreal and F for Christmas, so all November and December was all about longing to see him. After all ups and downs and the fact that we hadn’t seen each other since July, it felt so good to finally get to se him. Spend a relaxing and great Christmas and NY in Montreal, everything so perfect and easy. Wish it could be like that all the time, but the reality is far from that. Left him again with no clue what’s going to happen. Figure thats Life, my life of 2008.
